Let It Be

Right now I'm in the bathroom hiding out so I can write a bit. You heard me.

I can hear the boys and they're freaking out about Sparky puking on the floor and then trying to eat it. My kids are loud.

Lately I've been all over the place in my head. I have a million things I want to be doing. Crochet this, craft that, write this, watch that, etc etc... I can overwhelm myself!

I tend to get obsessed with one thing for about a week and sometimes it will stick for longer (like crochet) or I'll be ready to either move on for good or revisit in a few months. I can let myself get down that I'm not accomplishing something I had set out to do. But recently (5 minutes ago before entering my bathroom aka thinking spot) I decided to just LET IT BE.

I want to be writing another screenplay that I started a week ago but instead last night I stayed up watching MI-5 until 2am. I want to sew a doll for Mina that I saw on Instagram but she barely knows how to use her hands anyway. The thing is, I will do them okay? Maybe not tonight or tomorrow but I know if it's really that important to me, when the time is right, I will do it.

I may not do them in the "right" order or within the time limit I set for myself, and that's okay!

I do not need to make a checklist in my head and check off my accomplishments for the week to make me feel "productive". I will not allow myself to feel like a guilty procrastinator just because I didn't reorganize the garage or finish hanging up our family pictures on the wall.

This house looks just fine. It's filled with babies and we're living in it. The pictures will make their way up there when I get around to it.

Toys and books and naps

1. Target toys clearance was 70% off today and I was overjoyed to score Mina her first Cabbage Patch doll for only $11! Remember when those things were so hard to find for less than $100 when we were kids... some of you anyway...
2. There were also President Barbies for only $7 and I really wanted one. But it looks like Sarah Palin and Michelle Bachmann. Until they make one that looks like Hillary, I'll pass.
3. Ash got his 1st My Little Pony last week - Rainbow Dash. And today we let him pick another - Fluttershy. ;) love that kid!!
4. Bill washed the dishes, let me take a nap and cooked dinner today. It was the best day ever.
5. I started reading Angelfall while the boys were doing their homework. (A surprise gift from a great friend.) Classical music was playing which always inspires me to read. I'm on chapter 6 and so far it's really interesting. I've still put off finishing the last book in the Hunger Games series because I don't want it to be over. I'm still torn up over the end of Harry Potter. But I have JK's new book to read too - even if it's an adult book.

Post holiday ramblings

1. I haven't been sticking to my resolutions except for being more patient with my kids - which really is the most important. But today I did yoga, worked on a garland for the mantel and I'm writing right now... So I'm getting there.
2. I love yoga. It makes me feel so good. I love knowing that today I could barely touch my toes but each time I'll become more and more flexible. And I'll keep getting better and feeling better. I'm totally fine with gradual results.
3. I wish I could say I'm in good post baby shape but this holiday season I pigged out big time. But I know with exercise and better eating (less snacking) I will get back to a better weight. I'm trying not to be so hard on myself about it. So I'm just going to ease into better habits all around and not stress it. My short-term goal is yoga every day and better eating to get myself down 5-6 pounds by January 31st. And then we'll go from there. With breast feeding I think it's feasible.
4. Okay enough of that. Blargh. Does anyone have any good tips/tricks for dealing with a dog that likes to chew everything? Sparky is a chewer. The good thing is my house is cleaner because my kids don't leave toys around anymore. But he's chewing things like remotes and the baby monitor which are hard to replace. I guess we're off to obedience school. (No jean crotch eating, Vann... Yet...)
5. Going to sleep before midnight tonight. I'm boring.