I can hear the boys and they're freaking out about Sparky puking on the floor and then trying to eat it. My kids are loud.
Lately I've been all over the place in my head. I have a million things I want to be doing. Crochet this, craft that, write this, watch that, etc etc... I can overwhelm myself!
I tend to get obsessed with one thing for about a week and sometimes it will stick for longer (like crochet) or I'll be ready to either move on for good or revisit in a few months. I can let myself get down that I'm not accomplishing something I had set out to do. But recently (5 minutes ago before entering my bathroom aka thinking spot) I decided to just LET IT BE.
I want to be writing another screenplay that I started a week ago but instead last night I stayed up watching MI-5 until 2am. I want to sew a doll for Mina that I saw on Instagram but she barely knows how to use her hands anyway. The thing is, I will do them okay? Maybe not tonight or tomorrow but I know if it's really that important to me, when the time is right, I will do it.
I may not do them in the "right" order or within the time limit I set for myself, and that's okay!
I do not need to make a checklist in my head and check off my accomplishments for the week to make me feel "productive". I will not allow myself to feel like a guilty procrastinator just because I didn't reorganize the garage or finish hanging up our family pictures on the wall.
This house looks just fine. It's filled with babies and we're living in it. The pictures will make their way up there when I get around to it.
You've found it ! Congratulations you are a mom to the nth degree. My place to hide from everyone was the tub with an arena cup full of soften ice and book. Five minutes in the small room housing the stool and tub was the meeting place of a full fledged family forum. There will be a day when this has passed and it's a beautiful memory and you miss everyone needing you. ...and believe me you are plenty productive just accomplishing the routine tasks involved in running a household of six plus dog, working half-time, being chauffeur, nurse, cook, manager, CFO, etc..but most importantly what you do so wonderfully, being wife and mommy. Love you, Mom Rice (come to think of it that's you) aka Sitti
ReplyDeleteI steal away my 15 minutes a day and that's enough. I already miss it and I hate the idea of not having someone need for something. I live for it.
DeleteI'm impressed by how you've completely let go of mommy guilt! That seems to be one of the most difficult things to check off the to do list in this day and age!
ReplyDeleteIt is! And I hate that! I don't have enough time for it. haha
DeleteYou have twice the number of kids I do and my house doesn't look nearly that clean! I am seriously in awe of you!
ReplyDeleteI 2nd, Jac-Jac!
DeleteI JUST vacuumed and cleaned and thought... hey I better take a picture or I'll never remember what it looks like when it's clean.
Deleteyour house can be clean and organized and decorated perfectly...when they leave the house. For now, everyone's happiness and the family's closeness is way more important! If we ever get together, can we go get coffee or something? Or do we need to hide in the tub? ;)
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