Right now I'm in the bathroom hiding out so I can write a bit. You heard me.
I can hear the boys and they're freaking out about Sparky puking on the floor and then trying to eat it. My kids are loud.
Lately I've been all over the place in my head. I have a million things I want to be doing. Crochet this, craft that, write this, watch that, etc etc... I can overwhelm myself!
I tend to get obsessed with one thing for about a week and sometimes it will stick for longer (like crochet) or I'll be ready to either move on for good or revisit in a few months. I can let myself get down that I'm not accomplishing something I had set out to do. But recently (5 minutes ago before entering my bathroom aka thinking spot) I decided to just LET IT BE.
I want to be writing another screenplay that I started a week ago but instead last night I stayed up watching MI-5 until 2am. I want to sew a doll for Mina that I saw on Instagram but she barely knows how to use her hands anyway. The thing is, I will do them okay? Maybe not tonight or tomorrow but I know if it's really that important to me, when the time is right, I will do it.
I may not do them in the "right" order or within the time limit I set for myself, and that's okay!
I do not need to make a checklist in my head and check off my accomplishments for the week to make me feel "productive". I will not allow myself to feel like a guilty procrastinator just because I didn't reorganize the garage or finish hanging up our family pictures on the wall.
This house looks just fine. It's filled with babies and we're living in it. The pictures will make their way up there when I get around to it.